Where did I go wrong?

This is a question I keep asking myself, and unfortunately, I'm not sure what the correct answer is.

It could be that I moved back in to my parents house after college, or maybe the fact I invested in a house hours from where I work so I can't live there full time. Whatever the reason is, somewhere things got truly messed up.

The other day I was filling something out for a casting call, and it asked when the last time I was on a date. Do you know that I couldn't even remember?

While this makes me sad, and beyond embarrassed, it doesn't make me upset enough to do something about it.

I won't join an online dating site or enlist the help of a professional matchmaker. Heck, I won't even go to more events as a potential way of meeting prospects.

Why?

Because rejection hurts worse than status quo.

I know how a night at a charity event ends -- me seeing someone cute, them ignoring me, or ditching my business card in the nearest trash can.

That, is more upsetting than just not having anyone to start with.

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New Year's Eve

My favorite holiday, by far, has always been New Year's Eve. But, this year, it's likely to be my least favorite.

None of my single friends want to do anything, and all of my married friends already have plans -- that do not include me.
In the past, I've had people over my house, did the whole Times Square thing and more. Maybe I should just book a flight to Vegas or AC and gamble all night.

The sad part is not that I don't have plans. The sad part is that I have no friends to do anything with.

I'm not really sure how I ended up like this. It's got to be me, but I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong.

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